Alright, well, I always get stress easily and I think I’m mad. I just can’t forgive myself. T^T I always blame myself due to some flashbacks. Now, I'm really really REALLY sensitive to what others people think about me so I always try not to do smth stupid and that's why I always very very nervous in front of people. In that state, I'll start to panic and I found trouble in thinking or planning the next move. So, now, stress becomes very part of my life. Here's a situation I always face:
This situation often occurs when my friends ask me some question. Most of the time I can’t give them my answer cuz I’m having trouble thinking. My brain becomes very damn ‘jam’! So they turn away and ask another of their friends. This makes me think I’m a very slow react-person and lack of intelligence. I start to blame myself after then and become stress. I know you guys will say there’s no need to blame urself or no need to think like that. B¡.Bu..b..But, I just can’t control it!!!
Here’s another situation that even worst, People making fun of me. This sure will make me feel even harsher and even painful. The ‘ill some’ memory take a long time to be forgotten. When I’m blaming myself, I feel like I wanna kill myself or someone nearby. My fingers won’t stop stretching my skin due to stress, not till I calmed myself down.
I know this is stupid, guys. But.., If I didn’t do smth soon, its gonna turn me into a zombie. I dun wan stress take over my body and it will affect my future!!! I dun wan to become a monster. I can’t control my emotion! Help, guys!
