I'm DIFFERENT from the other girls!

I'm a total freak to my class becuz I'm an Emo in the class. Many people call me weirdo too. Lol.

             Well, that’s not the real reasons that make me different from the girls.

Here are some reasons:
~ I enjoy watching WWE (Teenage Fighting is excluded)

~ For some reason I LOVE caterpillar (becuz they r cute!)

~ I dislike girly thingy. :P

~ I love monster.
~ I hate romance.
~ I hate princess.

~ I often use insects’ dead bodies as my house decoration. (But my mom always throw em away~) XP

~ I chat with boyz most of time¡­.. Or u can say¡­ most of my life.. lol!

~ I often say bad words with my sisters at home for FUN!!! XD We keep laughing around.

~ Gothic ROCKS!!!

~ And finally, I’m a psycho. :D

            Now, dun give me that look, ok? Lol! If ur 1 of my close friends. You’ll know I’m

completely different person in school and at home. At school, I’m a quiet and shy girl but at

home…. You’ll discover that there’s a big transform in me from a shy quiet girl into a noisy hyperactive monkey.

            Most of my friends was kinda surprise when they discovered my ‘’real-self’’. And some of em nearly faint. Lol. I was juz kidding. HAHAHAH! =_= Lame….

             I know almost like 90++% girls in this world hate snakes. Strangely, I’m different! I LOVE snakes! (Python is my fav btw~) Why they so scare of snakes? They are sooo CUUTE and they r beauties!!! And spiders too!!! Ohh!!! And bats! Awww…0w0 They r soo adorable! They r sooo ‘fur’y!! >< I wish I could squezeee em! ><
 

             Alright, here’s a funny experience when I was young: I’m a kinda ‘boy-alike’ when I was young. It happened when I was standard 2. For some reason, my mom ALWAYS asked my uncle (who is a barber) cut a ‘boy’lish hair for me every time I go there for hair-cut. =_=’’ This cause a lot of ppl misunderstood me as a boy! WTF!? 0_0’’’  Some people keep asking the same question like :’’ OMY! Y he’s wearing a school girl uniform!?’’ And some of em even said:’’ WOW! He’s HANDSOME!!(LOL)!’’ Ehem, Excuse me!? I’m a girl! >O< After I realized my problem, I go begged my mom for not to cut me a ‘boy’lish hair EVER AGAIN!

              Okay~ That’s all for now!! I wanna go and make my sisters scream. :D Farewell.

Traumatic Stress strikes back!

    Alright, well, I always get stress easily and I think I’m mad. I just can’t forgive myself. T^T I always blame myself due to some flashbacks. Now, I'm really really REALLY sensitive to what others people think about me so I always try not to do smth stupid and that's why I always very very nervous in front of people. In that state, I'll start to panic and I found trouble in thinking or planning the next move. So, now, stress becomes very part of my life. Here's a situation I always face:

    This situation often occurs when my friends ask me some question. Most of the time I can’t give them my answer cuz I’m having trouble thinking. My brain becomes very damn ‘jam’! So they turn away and ask another of their friends. This makes me think I’m a very slow react-person and lack of intelligence. I start to blame myself after then and become stress. I know you guys will say there’s no need to blame urself or no need to think like that. B¡­.Bu..b..But, I just can’t control it!!!
 

    Here’s another situation that even worst, People making fun of me. This sure will make me feel   even harsher and even painful. The ‘ill some’ memory take a long time to be forgotten. When I’m blaming myself, I feel like I wanna kill myself or someone nearby. My fingers won’t stop stretching my skin due to stress, not till I calmed myself down.

    I know this is stupid, guys. But.., If I didn’t do smth soon, its gonna turn me into a zombie. I dun wan stress take over my body and it will affect my future!!! I dun wan to become a monster. I can’t control my emotion! Help, guys!